I don't trust words , I trust actions

My hearts breaks a little when I hear you're name.

But now my hearts breaks even deeper when I see your face.

Tell me and teach me how to trust you ?

Am I suppose to act like nothing had happened ?

I'm so confused.

Who am I to you ?

I thought you were different.

but I was wrong. 

I expect to much .

Everything was just a false hope .

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I just want the truth . 

Why do you need to create story just to cover up your lie?

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Let time prove everything 

Let time make the decision  

~2014 ~

       Everytime I breathe I take you In ♥

The third month of the year..

I would say there's a big change this year..

Maybe everyone is growing mature but I'm not ..

But doesn't matter , everyone needs time to improve.

Handball competition is just around the corner ,
My dream was to be an athelete but I gave up,
I wanna play sports but I couldn't find anyone to accompany me and I'm not good at any of them ,and parents wouldn't let me out .. 
so I just end up sitting here and dream..

Exams had just ended , 

My results are quite satisfying but there's some subject I'm dissapointed at 

and I regret a lot for not studying .

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There's some day I sit here wondering how would my life be without you , 

There's some hours , some day I sit here worrying that you will leave me one day, 

There's thousands , hundreds , millions reason for me to not trust you , but I still trust you .

If you were to ask me why ? I would answer you is the power of love . 

I've learn many things from you , and you've teach me to be a better person and to have more confidence in life, although I'm still not showing any changes .

I'm really thankful that I still have someone who will listen to my stories , problems and all . 

Maybe is too late for me to realise how terrible am I before this , but I'm still making an effort to change .

I'm not perfect. I'm just a person which is named " hopeless" .

I'm really thankful that you accept my past and go through every single bitterness with me . 

Although you too have give a deep heartbroken impact . 

Just lately, I don't know why ... 

Are you fading or bored ? 

things are starting to change. You don't care much .

i'm just confused and messed up.

To whoever you are , Please just get your hand off . 

There's nothing compares to you . 

-PPL-

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ! ♥

Have a great & blessed CNY :) 

Wish all of you are always happy and healthy . 
And hope everyone can achieve your dreams and  New Year's Resolutions without going through hard challenges :) 

A smile a day , keeps the pain away .
A prayer a day, keeps the devil away .
Problems comes day after day but God's love towards us will never fade away .
New year is a great starting of a new life .
No matter how many times we fall , we must not fear to get back up. 
There's nothing we can't overcome when God is in your beautiful heart .
Past stories is where we learn to be a better person .
Is just depends on whether you willing to take it as a lesson in your life . 
The past doesn't define who you are
The future of your life is the one that takes the shot.
Chinese New Year is the days the chinese culture celebrate .
Getting oranges and red packets by visiting people day after day .
Hope everyone enjoy these days with the biggest smile on the face 
Happiness comes from the smile of human's face
Is just whether you want it to stay or fade away .
Don't let one bad thing destroy your day 
But thank God your blessed today .
I hope everyone is happy everyday 
God bless and love everyone every single day :) 

-PPL- ♥

HAPPY 2013 !

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!! (I know is a bit late ) heehee..
WOW ! Time passed so fast , It's 2013 already ! 
So,how's the beginning of your 2013 ?
Mine was .. unpredictable. 
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Well , went to Pastor's house on the 31.12.12 for BBQ partyy :) 
For some reason I didn't want to go ..but I went..
Sadly, I wasn't in a mood and I was not feeling well on that day but I enjoyed ..
I was really sleepy and moody before everything started.. 
And BEFORE IT STARTED .. NYAHAHA ! 
I get to hear some secrets .. but not mine :p 
So,everything ended and I was suppose to go home but I went to Setiawalk to countdown instead because my parents and their cell groups members were there. 
And yeah it was so CROWDED .
I reached home around 2am in the morning .. I was so exhausted ! 
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The next day ..
Went to Sunway Pyramid with my parents and then Summit with my friend and her parents.
Well, Tried a few clothes and it doesn't fit me and it looks ugly on me . 
I get dissapointed everytime I want to buy new year clothes because It's hard to find clothes that suit me .
But Thank God , after walking the entire Sunway Pyramid I bought my New Year clothes . 
Then I went to summit.. Honestly I didn't really wanna go because I was really tired and the next day school reopen but I didn't want to dissapoint my friend so I went with her . 
After the whole, finally I'm going home. But it was already 12am when I reached home.
Packed my school stuff ,online and I went to bed.
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2.1.13 SCHOOL REOPEN
As usual, I'm always very energetic on the first day of school.I mean as in the first day of school in the year.
Actually , the only thing in my mind when I went to school was "How am I going to tuition later?" , "who else is going ? " "What is going to happen in assembly later ? " Who will be my teachers this year ? " "where's my duty place ? " "where am I going to sit ? " Who am I going to sit? "
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I feel so lonely this year . Some of my friends are transfering to another school because they can't get into science stream . Some of my friends are in science stream and some of them is in the same class as me.
Well, I didn't really bother talking to anyone except a few of them . I just wanna focus in my study and achieve my dream next year.
I wanted to look for someone to talk with,share my story/problems with but in the end I didn't .
then day passes just like that .
Lifeless huh? It's life .
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TODAY 
New Life churches combine service .
WOW ! It was so crowded and awesome . 
Awesome in power of God ! 
It was freezing cold ,and the message that Pastor shared to us was incredible.
Yeah ! Forget about the past and start a new life in 2013! 
From unbelief to belief . From unforgiving to loving . 
Is the Year of JUBILEE :) 
(oh , I got smashed by a huge dice lol ) 
I didn't get to pop the balloons but when the ballons were popped it sounded like Fire Crackers in the hotel ^^
HOPE ! FAITH ! LOVE ! 
God's love endure forever :) 
God love every of you forever :) When you're down , He's there. He's your true friend and your best friend :) 
Pray in faith ! 
Ask and it will be given ,
Seek God when you're in trouble,
Thank God when you're blessed ! :) ♥


-PPL♥-

The sun goes down , The stars come out and all that counts is Here and Now 

Wow ! Time passed so fast . Is December already ! 

Do you know what month is it ? 

THE CHRISTMAS MONTH! are you all excited ? 

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Anyway , How's your December life going ?

Fun ? Happy ? Sad ? 

Well , we should all just be thankful :)

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I've good start of December . But now , I don't know what I can say .

All I can do is move on . :)

And of course since is the month of December , I will like to take this opportunity to thanks all my friends that willing to hear my stories and be by my side when I'm down and all .

I really appreciate that . 

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And to YOU . 

I really don't know what I can do anymore. 

We are not as close as were anymore. But I still care for you .

I really hope you can turn back the person you were when I first met . 

I never thought our friendship will end up like that .

Yeah , my friendship never last .

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SMILE :D 

Challenges in Life

As days passed , finally is the last day of working days ~ 

I'm glad I don't have to face those terrible staff anymore. 

But I'm also glad , I've learnt a lot of things from this job ... although is so torturing . 

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October and November Had been a really terrible month for me.

So many things happened. So many problems to face.

But I just kept quiet .

I don't know who to talk to . I don't want to annoy people with my problems .

More and more ... 

I feel like I'm going to collapse ..

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 YOU and YOU  .

Do you know how much tears I shed because of YOU and YOU ?

I really don't know what can I do anymore .

Why I care about people so much , but no one actually cares about me ?

Oh GOD , I need your help .

Please lead my way . Tell me what to do.

There's so many WHY'S in my head .
I need to think positive and get rid of my negative thoughts 

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I feel so left out in this world. 

Maybe I was born to be alone .

No matter what .. LIFE GOES ON .

I've to keep going .. There's long way more to go .

Keeping quiet is just the only way I can do .

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Smile as wide as you can because not everyone get to smile like you :) 

Care less , Less hurt .

Smile to hide the pains :)

Holidays had started .. 

So , Unfortunately .. I got a Job . :) I was happy but not anymore.

The Job is so toturing ! The staff there are terrible. And is super tiring ! But anyway , I've learnt alot of stuff.

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Went to Sunway Pyramid with "the people" yesterday .. Is was ok .. Watched Perfect Pitch !

It was awesome and incredible . Their voice are like.. PERFECT ! 

Then , we had Shabu Shabu for dinner . Suprisingly , I ate the most,the slowest and the cleanest . LOL !

The rest are like eating Pork the whole time . Like seriously .. Is the pork really that nice ? I only ate one piece and I ate Fishball all the time .. HEHEHE! xD 

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Well , many things happened lately . 
I don't know how to face it anymore.
I don't know how to walk this path anymore.
All I can do is just keep in my heart ,keep quiet and act like nothing had happened..
My heart is full of scars ...
I can no longer stand this pain 
How much tears had I fall for all this ?
Who will understand the pain I'm going through now ?[GOD]

 All I want is just a peaceful and happy life . 

So just smile as you can because you will not know one day someone will fall inlove by your smile . :) 

Smile more because the more you smile, the prettier you are :)